Agree 2 Disagree
Pain
Today I tried to end this life
with a belt around my neck and a knife
I have no more energy for this battle
starting to feel like one fo the cattle
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Heart is heavy and skies so grey
I wonder which decision made my life this way
Was it letting him become my child's keeper
or does it go much further back and deeper
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Why does it even hurt to breathe
lips turn blue without chattering teeth
Each tear stings my face, eye lids puffy as can be
I'm lost and hurt, can't anyone see
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If you think I'm being crazy
research depression, I'm not just lazy
PTSD since the age of 3, or was it 2
my mind blocks it out, oh what did they do?
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Scars on my body both self afflicted and given by one
violence surrounds me, the trauma weighs a ton
and still my heart still yearns to care
holding the pieces of my life, please no more tares
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